her definition of horrible was getting put next to someone she didnt like in one of her college lectures. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. 4. liam loving him was like he pulled them up over his head, covering his ears, letting out soft sobs into the silent air. see, you know i love you, and i cant believe you would ever doubt me about that. he looked down at where his arms were tightly wrapped around his chest, wishing june would just reach out and pull him into a hug. An annotation cannot contain another annotation. a little while did turn into 45 minutes but neither alex or henry quite honestly cared. i know you are going through so so much right now but do you know how hard it was- how hard it was for me to find my 17 year old brotherblack out drunk on a park bench in the rain. alex looked down at his socked feet, kicking it back and forth on junes carpet. liam was only a friend. okay, we always talk about you, and its always about your problems. he might say this is what hes been looking for since tommy. he sat down in the media center during his free period, taking out the calculus homework he was just assigned the period before. Missing him was dark gray, all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met But loving him was red Loving him was red. and because alex would do anything for a little male validation, he completely and utterly folds. [Verse 2: Camila & Dinah] Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted. 95 guests he threw the door open, staring at henry who sat at their dinner table, the table all set with two plates filled with food. Chorus A E Losing him was blue like I d never known B Missing him was dark grey all alone A C#m B Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met A C#m B Cause loving him was red yeah yeah red A C#m B We're burning red A C#m And that's why he's spinning round in my head B Comes back to me burning red . it all happened too fast for him to catch up, all he knew was he mumbled out a stop against her lips. it was his last first day of high school and it was so important to him. he threw the door open, staring at henry who sat at their dinner table, the table all set with two plates filled with food. Losing him was blue like I'd never known Missing him was dark grey all alone Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met But loving him was red Oh red burning red Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes Tell myself it's time now, gotta let go But moving on from him is impossible When I still see it all in my head Burning red! alex felt his body almost sag in relief, melting into henrys embrace. he wasnt sure if he was being honest. the night was promptly finished with june showing alex how horrible of a boyfriend tommy was. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. losing him was blue like i've never known you did not deserve this, at all. The Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Chords ends here. alex spotted liam moving towards where both of their families sat together, liams family basically separating oscar and ellen. it wasnt a big deal. Official lyric video by Casting Crowns performing All You've Ever Wanted (C) 2013 Provident Label Group LLC, a unit of Sony Music EntertainmentiTunes: http:/. in all honesty, alex didnt want to do what tommy wanted from him, but he didnt want tommy to be mad at him. pretty much right away, every student was on their feet, rushing to find each other, or moving to find their families who were now slowly shuffling out of the bleachers, or the small few who held out hope in still finding their cap. he pushed himself up off the ground and tried to hug his mom, but he was simply just shoved at least a foot away. i guess im just worried, but im sorry. he wasnt sure if he was being honest. Contact although it was obvious they had something special, liam wasnt out yet, and they could only meet in secrecy. just before they lose it all im not the best with love either, i was raised in a loveless household. he was almost sure he did. he had been on edge all day and this just tipped him right over. she sat down across from him, a smile plastered across her face. 2. june was now watching them from the bottom of the stairs, 3. his mom was gripping the hood of his hoodie, holding him back from trying to hug his dad, he put in all his weight to push his mom off him and promptly ran into oscars side, hugging his legs. alex refused to believe nora really thought this. it was hopeless for them. in that moment he was sure he could feel his heart breaking. regretting him was like Videos were added by DanuL97, Moonblade, Lenin606. alex and his long term boyfriend in college. alex met tommy his first year at college at a bar. IM JUST FUCKED UP AND CANT DO ANYTHING RIGHT, I GET IT. instinctively, his body started to curl in on itself. Regretting him was like, wishing you never found out that love could be that strong. her definition of horrible was getting put next to someone she didnt like in one of her college lectures. he pushed himself up on his tiptoes letting his lips meet tommys. it really wasnt a big deal it just kinda put me in a bad mood. he was practically vibrating with joy as he led his senior class in moving the tassel, then leading them into throwing their caps into the air. his head hurt, and all he really wanted to do was go to sleep. she sat down across from him, a smile plastered across her face. he cocooned himself in his blankets, the energy of his sobs tiring him out, and carrying him off to sleep. like home. he couldnt pinpoint the exact emotion, but if you asked alex he would probably say tommy looked almost disgusted in him. dont touch me. just because i get with other people sometimes doesnt mean i dont care about you. im sorry, he whispered, his eyes glossy. and that's why he's spinning round in my head tommy simply just stared at alex. 2. june and he was only partially aware as he was called onto the stage to give his speech as valedictorian. he took off running up the stairs, passed june, straight into his room, diving under the covers. dont. no you didnt, we can simply push them back an hour, or reschedule them to tomorrow. left kudos on this work! by now alex was aware of a few things. Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer Regretting him was like wishing you never found out love could be that strong left kudos on this work! and besides, i said i was sorry, what more could you want from me. alexs heart wholly broke. 3. nora tears silently ran down his cheeks at the feeling of comfort. he heard the door to his room close gently, and the sound of heavy footsteps move down the stairs. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. he ignored the scolding coming from his mom about how he should be in bed. instead, alex broke the silence for him, continuing on, someone kissed me today and i didnt want it. alex stood in the middle of junes room, shivering, with his clothes dripping rainwater all over the light purple carpet. alex took one look in henrys bottomless blue eyes before collapsing into the nearest chair, cries bubbling out of him. he was at the age where everything in his life shouldve been so perfect. being bibeing who i am- it's so important to me and who i am, and by hiding who i'm with, it feels like i'm losing that part of me," he took a deep breath, tears threatening to fall from his eyes, "and i just can . it just feels likeit feels like you just dont really care about me; like youre using me, his voice hushed, practically an inaudible whisper. 95 guests for most of the names called he zoned out, just barely making out the syllables coming out of his principles mouth, but once he heard liams name he was suddenly self aware. he attempted to pull alex into a hug but alex simply just pulled himself away. when he got home, his first instinct was the invite nora over, hoping for some positive reinforcement from her. i could never ever be mad at you for that, becausei love you.. Presenting you Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Lyrics by Fifth Harmony. im so sorry, i dont mean to make you feel bad. once he knew he was alone, his legs gave out, forcing his body to the ground. tears silently ran down his cheeks at the feeling of comfort. its okay now, ill leave and you dont have to worry about it now. i know. but that doesnt mean anything. he glanced around at everyone standing by them and thankfully, him and liam had gone unnoticed by liams parents, but alex knew he had to be more careful. he let the feeling of grief overtake him until he was able to push himself up and onto his bed. although it was obvious they had something special, liam wasnt out yet, and they could only meet in secrecy. Loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street, Faster than the wind, passionate as sin, ending so suddenly, Losing him was blue, like id never known, Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you, Remembering him comes in flashbacks and echoes, And thats why hes spinning around in my head, Cause loving him was like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street. alex glanced at the dinner now abandoned, now cold, sitting on the table, i ruined your plans for tonight, he croaked, looking up at henry with wet eyes. he swiftly moved passed henry when he opened the door, his brain moving 100 miles per hour. he locked the door to their bedroom, throwing as many of his clothes as he could into a duffel bag. continued until liam showed up and pulled jordan off him. i love you. alex wouldnt have heard henrys voice if henry wasnt so close. 3. nora he jumped into liams arms, virtually knocking him over, WE DID IT! burning red i love you so bloody much it hurts. is that what you want to hear? he made a brief list in his mind. tip: "sherlock (tv)" m/m NOT "sherlock holmes/john watson", Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. alex refused to believe nora really thought this. this character is very much based on someone from my real life, so yeah, enjoy!! missing him was dark gray all alone alex finally gets the comfort he needs in his times of hurt. this chapter hurt so much more because it hits close to home. Work Search: it was uncomfortable and left an uneasy feeling in alexs stomach. it does not go according to alexs plan. he had ran out of the coffee shop and all the way back home to the brownstone is probably less than 5 minutes. go to sleep alex.. If you accept cookies from our site and you choose "Proceed", you will not be asked again during this session (that is, until you close your browser). If you log in you can store your preference and never be asked again. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. driving a new masareti down a dead end street, T-Swizzle Lyrics provided by SongLyrics.com. Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song. he held alex. when ellen and oscars fights first started, alex was still so young. Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with him was like trying to . 95 guests he wanted to be happy with his boyfriend for once, sue him. All Rights Reserved 2023.. Free Theme By, Touching Him Was Like Realizing All You Ever Wanted Chords, How Could We Ever Just Be Friends I Would Rather Die Than Let You Go Chords, Alapatra Chords | Sajjan Raj Vaidya | Yabesh Thapa. he felt a feeling in his chest, almost like the feeling he got when he was gonna cry. Please consider turning it on! no you didnt, we can simply push them back an hour, or reschedule them to tomorrow. tip: "sherlock (tv)" m/m NOT "sherlock holmes/john watson", 1. ellen and oscar liam scoffed, taking a large step towards alex, you know thats not true. i pushed them off but i still feel gross, but its all my fault.. see, you know i love you, and i cant believe you would ever doubt me about that. you know thats not what i think, i never said that-. he pushed away all of henrys attempts to comfort him. Touching him was like, realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you. I NEVER ASKED YOU TO WORRY ABOUT ME! he knew his argument was weak and invalid, but really all he could do was get defensive. its okay now, ill leave and you dont have to worry about it now. being bibeing who i am- its so important to me and who i am, and by hiding who im with, it feels like im losing that part of me, he took a deep breath, tears threatening to fall from his eyes, and i just cant do it anymore. he didnt care about that right now. 2. june Lyrics Forsongs808 20 subscribers Subscribe 661 45K views 5 years ago Song:Unknown Show. alex spotted liam moving towards where both of their families sat together, liams family basically separating oscar and ellen. okay? all alex could do in response was nod as he slowly lowered himself down to the floor until he was sitting. if alex didnt feel the pleasure he felt he should have in this moment, he doesnt tell anyone. as sins ended so suddenly he wanted to be happy with his boyfriend for once, sue him. 3. nora alex had dumped so much on him at once he didnt know how to process it. it was a rather warm fall day, and alex had just gotten back from what felt like the longest day ever. Touching him is like realizing all you ever wanted is right there in front of you, Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings. henry im sorry. and i could see it all in my head continued until liam showed up and pulled jordan off him. But loving him was red, red, red. 2023 but then the tears never came. 4. liam LocalNews - Modern WordPress Theme. go to sleep alex.. this was nothing new. tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. nora quickly made her way out of the claremont household, leaving alex alone with his thoughts. he was absolutely heartbroken. 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